What's in it for me?

I'm posting this from the iPhone so there's bound to be a ton of mistakes. But the pc is down and this is all I've got. I went to church yesterday morning; first time I attended a Sunday morning service in well over a month. I was feeling pretty proud of myself. I showered and took special care with my brand new hairstyle. I wore something super-cute, jeweled and perfumed myself, and we were on our way. I was full of anticipation. My friends were going to be so surprised...so glad to see me. And everyone was sure to go wild about my hair! Didn't quite work out that way. People were sweet. A few said they'd missed me. Fewer gave me brief bugs. And only ONE person even mentioned my hair!! To say the least, I was disappointed. I pouted a little as I made lunch. Then it hit me. I had gone to church for accolades...compliments...attention. I went from pouty to ashamed really quickly. So, I had not gone to worship...praise...learn...encourage. What was wrong with me? I'd spent over a month keeping away from church in order to heal, to meditate, to cry. Did I become so self-absorbed during those weeks that I even made Sunday morning worship about me? Good grief!! I've reevaluated my perspective and hope to never again see my wonderful congregation in terms of what they can do for me! I'm sorry, church family.