Therapy (5)

Have you ever cried so hard that your nose was still red the morning? Your eyes still burn and your throat is sore? That was me Wednesday morning. According to M.T. I've transitioned into a new phase of therapy. During the first four sessions, we laid the foundation. Information, information, information! I am all about information. Knowledge is power. I can research. I can dig. I wrap answers around myself and feel secure with all the pieces fitting neatly in place. I think there was a bug part of me hoping that therapy was going to put all the pieces together for and then I'd be done. What I never considered was what would happen after I had all the information. I had previously typed up this long post about the therapy session only to have it disappear!! Instead of going into all that detail again, I'm simply going to say this. Having all the answers helps tremendously. It is not, however, the end of the journey. Learning who said what to whom; whose motivation was what; who did this; who didn't do that...these things certainly help me. I do want to understand everything as it truly took place. But it's what I do with all of the information that matters. And M.T. is has made it clear that this is going to be hard, painful, exhausting, and sometimes dreaded. I think you all know me well enough to know my reply. Bring it. Let's do this!(this will have to post full of typos because I'm not risking the whole save-edit-save-preview-save-post.)